Kianna at 3 wks old. We are so deeply in love with this little miss! I couldnt ask for a better baby, she's so happy and content. The only time she seems to ever fuss is between 9-12 at night. I wouldnt mind if she would go to sleep earlier, but then I really cant complain because once she does go to sleep around midnight she most times sleeps solid till around 5 -6 in the morning. None of my other babies slept that long when this young.We are amazed every day at her brilliant health. She is SO pink and can even turn deep red! lol! She is already getting chubby and has a hearty appetite. We do not take her health for granted! It is such a gift, yet at the same time it hurts us all over to realize how very sick and fragile Jadrian was. He struggled for everything that comes so easy and natural for Kianna. I cant think about it too much because it seems so unfair. We loved him just the way he was. And today I would give anything to hold my sweet son again and see him smile into my eyes. How could one little person leave such a big hole. Our family still feels SO small without him!!
Yes, God knew our family needed the joy and comfort that a new baby brings. She is a heaven sent BLESSING!Karilee keeps saying she wishes Jadrian could be here to see her. She said if only he could have lived till he was at least four so he could have gotten to know her Kianna too.
Yesterday Derek came to me and said, " I wish I could die right now so I could go to heaven and see Jadrian & Jesus." I asked him what he would say when he first see's Jesus.....
He dreamily replied: "I would say, I thought Id NEVER get to come to heaven!" A bit later he added, "I just cant imagine how BIG Jesus must be if he's bigger than a gorilla and daddy!" He had the sweetest, pure, amazed look it just melted my heart. He often wishes to die and at first it made me uncomfortable because of course I have no desire to give up another son but I have come to love his sweet innocence. He is so comfortable with the thought of dying and being with Jesus. he cant wait to see the beauties of heaven. I dont ever want to stifle that beautiful innocent heart of his!
